Hope and happiness

Goaded by own intentions

Unhappy with my introspection

But the hope still flickers inside

The one with whom now I abide



I will survive after all

I won’t be the cause of my fall

Clinging too tight to tomorrow

Dreading anymore sorrow



One little thing, a genuine smile

Kept eluding me all this while

But happy is what I will be

My moment will come to me



A complex cycle of joy and tears

Our treasured innocence it cuts and shears

My existence does have some implication

As there is no reason for this humiliation



In eternity we seek satisfaction

Searching answers in this cosmic contraption

Even in distress we never cease

To look for the curve that straightens every crease



But why should I not defy the unjust

Why should I lay battered and bust

For I deserve a right to rejoice

As happiness is such a simple choice

Suicide

An abrupt decision

Painful illusion

Disrupted all her plans

Punctured ego

Nightmarish moment

She never could understand!



What happened?

She asked herself

Her guts revolted

The thought froze her

As it creeped in

Then all went blank!



The night more evil

The cliff like death

The wind bore her

Astute as it seemed

It all had withered

Laid wasted on the land!



In the quick moment

She saw it all

The life that had gone bad

But never had she imagined

In the worst of times

Content never could be had!



Dark it was

But clear she saw

The blood, Her blood

Murky it seemed

After the thud

The mistake was rash!



The mist shrouded her

It was no glory

No quiet, no gain

Nothing she thought

It brought

Was shame and more pain!



Undo my death

She could only wince

Undo my loss

In seconds she knew

Kill she made of herself

And a bitter surrender!